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So hey what is up?
Hmm things have been crazy indeed.. I really can't explain anything.. it's just simply WEIRD!
School= I hate it more and more, no I hate how I have to get up at 6 every damn day .. there isn't enough time for anything these days its so hectic.. I look forward to fridays knowing I can wake up at like 12 in the afternoon the next day..
*GREASE* is THURSDAY! wow guys can you believe it?? and we're like SOLD OUT scary feeling.. this year it was ran differently.. If you had to be there you were if you werent needed you were not there.. I remember how even last year we stayed and watched and footloose please i never wanted to go home.. * I KNOW 4 a factthat i'm going to cry like a newborn.. it's the end.. it really is.. Wade will sum it up 4 us during yoga and most of us seniors and some juniors even freshman will cry.. we've been with them for 3yrs.. *sigh* it's been fun guys!
All the hang outs i've owed ppl I've been making them up.. a party here and there.. a mall day here and there.. I don't want to miss out on a lot of things and then end up like "wow if i went to so and so I would have met so and so and blah blah blah*.. but i wont attend EVERY event thats just crazy..
So Hartford did end up giving me money... $11,000 a year = 44,000 for 4yrs that mom n pops don't have to pay or even pay back it was a grant.. thats like a year of college free basically... but I sent in my acceptance letter to purchase I have to decide b4 may 1st.. i can still reject purchase.. but I know i got my double room suite.. i kind of dont want to chance it at Hartford and end up in a freakin resident hall with 320586234085 freshman and using the same bathroom no no no.. I'm a delicate flower yes yes yes... I KNOW 4 a fact a certain few people will be upset if i chose Hartford.. it's 2 n a half hrs away.. i know I wouldn't come home as much as I would if I went to Purchase.. ... ...
* the thing is Hartford is in the top ranking of Business school's in the US. weird.. but true.. they have all Division I sports.. so going to sporting events will be AMAZINGLY FUN... and Purchase is known for the cultural program and Theatre is my 2nd major bc i plan to double major.. it's business is a little above the development level.. but they barely are big on sporting events.. volleyball which i was going to play is going to be a division III next year most of it is intramural BORING!... it's rather hand in hand ya know.. i just don't want to make the wrong choice.. either way there is good and bad to it but i dont know..
Most of all.. I'm scared of losing touch.. no I'm terrified.. I've been listening to all you past DAHS students and reading LJ's.. annd some of you talk about how you lost touch with a best friend.. that scares me.. I mean yeah if you're strong enough you'll make it work.. I just want to enjoy these days as much as I can
Relationship wise- eh not going there .. I have some1 that I try to see but my parentals do not approve of and it sucks.. he's coming to GREASE on friday lets see how that goes!.. I've been talking to other people i'm just meeting them everywhere.. watch I'll probably be in a huge rut later on in life and have a dry spell bc every1 wanted 2 talk to me when i was young.. ha .. but what are you going to do.. i'm not stressing it as much anymore
I don't know.. my life is amusement park material.. not just a roller coaster.. i've been talking to people in school that i would never have spoken to back in the day.. and it's like I'm sorry for being mean when I was.. why do you realize things when you get older.. why can't things just be right as it comes?.. 18 years old isnt that big of a deal but yet it seems that it is.. hmm 19 this year lets see what that holds for me.. i've also gave up on some people.. just stopped conversing.. it takes too much energy to deal with their drama.. a part of me wants out of the hs drama and the other is like don't grow up any faster bc you'll lose something later on.. ya know??
eh it will all work itself out somehowwwwwwwwwwwwwwwwww.. i must go laterrrrrrrrrrrrrrrr |